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Sunday, May 10, 2009
haiyo im having fights with him siah...i just hate it when things get out of control.....well our convo went really smooth on that particular friday alot of intimacy talkings.....then thing got worst when he started asking about thing which i think most of the girls would start to feel indifferent or jealous when their boyfriend starts talking about this.... then i said jealousy kills lah bie.... he said:i know you have the rights to be jealous but bie...you know i only love you siah... hmm then i kept quiet all the way...he started asking me (bie you okay or not?)many times....i felt irritated so i said DONT YOU UNDERSTAND ENGLISH OR DO YOU WANT ME TO TRANSLATE IT IN MALAY? okay yup then i was kinda relieved after saying that but the story didnt stop the as then he kept VERY QUIET!!!! ihate when that happens..... then i started talking to him i ask him th same thing that he ask me.... then he only say "mmmmmmm" then last he say"i nk tdo" haiz then i say up to you lah bie.... at that moment after hanging up i texted him asking for forgiveness.....yet no reply! haiya...then the next day was family outing at east coast.....yup early in the morning he text me say this"U JZ ENJOY WITH YOUR FRIENDS ON MON......I DON HV MOOD" after reading that i was damn saddened.....bie what happen siah to the promises that we MADE? then text syaff......after talking to her..... my tears started to come to live.....sial ah the whole day tried miss calling him,texting him NO REPLY! then again at my crib i cried again... today morning text syaff say no mood want go anywhere.....tmrw also cancelled! i know she is so damn pissed with me....i think almost half of the class knew how DAMN EXCITED I WAS FOR THE MONDAY OUTING! but its all bcoz of this so called boyfriend of mine... MY EYES SWOLLEN,HAD FIGHTS WITH BESTFRIENDS,RELIGIOUS CLASS PRINCI GONNA CALL MY MUM....GIVING FAKE SMILES TO EVERYONE.... SYAFF DEAREST;IM SO SUPER DAMN SORRY FOR NOT JOINING YU IN THE OUTING...YOU WERE THE ONLY ONE THAT I KNOW WHOM WAS DAMN EXCITED ABOUT ME GOING OUT WITH YOU GUYS.... but with this kind of bad situation i guess you have to try to understand what i feell...and syaff if when i dint love him alot you scold then when i love him alot you also scold me....(k nevermind i know this is bcoz you are damn pissed with that "BOYFRIEND"of mine i understand and ppl guess what???!!!! before our fight..like i mean before the time i called him i got give him comment saying iloveyou this and that...guess what he did to that prcious comment of mine????? HE DELETED IT! k enough said im already having tears dropping on my keyboard..... baby with you doing this to me do you think we can still stay strong like what you always say? will i ever be you wife like you promised to me that you will be only married to me? will i ever get my first and last love like what you promised me? will i ever get all this negative thoughts to be washed away? baby you promised that if i were to cry you will be the one wiping my tears...but i guess im now being independent im WIPING MY OWN TEARS LAH BABY.... Labels: will it be okay? |
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